How do I stay focused on what I really believe?

How do I stay focused on what I really believe?

I have (again) been working with the workbook lessons from A Course in Miracles. This time around I am focusing on really doing each lesson. Accordingly, I have decided that I will do the same lesson up to three days or until I actually do it - which ever comes first. Well, it's the 140th day of the year and I'm on lesson 95. That should be a sign that it's taking me a while to actually "do" a lesson the way it was planned to be done. The last few lessons have focused on taking 5 minutes every waking hour to focus on the lesson for the day. Has this ever been a challenge for me. In fact, I've found myself going for long periods during the day without focusing on the lesson at all. (And I forgive myself.)

Then I get to lesson 95, one of those "In Your Face" lessons that certainly humbled me. The lesson states:
The use of the first five minutes of every waking hour for practicing the idea for the day has special advantages at the stage of learning in which you are at present. It is difficult at this point not to allow your mind to wander, if it undertakes extended practice. You have surely realized this by now. You have seen the extent of your lack of mental discipline, and of your need for mind training. It is necessary that you be aware of this, for it is indeed a hindrance to your advance. Frequent but shorter practice periods have other advantages for you at this time. In addition to recognizing your difficulties with sustained attention, you must also have noticed that, unless you are reminded of your purpose frequently, you tend to forget about it for long periods of time. You often fail to remember the short applications of the idea for the day, and you have not yet formed the habit of using the idea as an automatic response to temptation.
Structure, then, is necessary for you at this time, planned to include frequent reminders of your goal and regular attempts to reach it. Regularity in terms of time is not the ideal requirement for the most beneficial form of practice in salvation. It is advantageous, however, for those whose motivation is inconsistent, and who remain heavily defended against learning. We will, therefore, keep to the five-minutes-an-hour practice periods for a while, and urge you to omit as few as possible. Using the first five minutes of the hour will be particularly helpful, since it imposes firmer structure. Do not, however, use your lapses from this schedule as an excuse not to return to it again as soon as you can. There may well be a temptation to regard the day as lost because you have already failed to do what is required. This should, however, merely be recognized as what it is; a refusal to let your mistake be corrected, and an unwillingness to try again.
As the younger generation says these days, "You've been served!"

I do recognize that I am at my best when I remember my true home is with God. My family certainly experiences me at my best when I am remembering that I am spirit and when I am seeing them as spirit as well; when I am letting go and not making demands, but instead offering them the opportunity to be all that they can be.

So I affirm with you, as I see you affirming with me, that we will walk in hourly remembrance of who and what we are in truth. Spread the joy!

In Joy,

Michael