There's not really any such thing as injustice

"If you know it's your dream, then there's a part of your mind that knows there's not really any such thing as injustice. You made it all up, and you got what you wanted for a reason. You got to keep your individuality and project the guilt for it on someone else at the same time. How convenient!" (The Disappearance of the Universe, p.252)

I've been working on a forgiveness lesson from earlier this week that seems to be taking me a little longer than usual to fully forgive. How do I know? Some elements of the disappointment I felt when the incident occurred seems to still be present when I think about it.

I am a member of a certification board that assesses candidates and training courses. To increase reliability and rigor, the assessment process is highly structured and requires two people involved in each assessment, an assessor and a reviewer. The goal in the rigor is to have the assessor and reviewer come to a consensus (not an average) on the scores across 30 competencies. If after discussion, they can't agree on a score for a particular competency, the reviewer's score is given precedence.

This particular assessment was challenging, as we were using a newly developed assessment model and assessing a member of the board of the organization. My goal was to take a dispassionate, analytical view of the process, without regard to the person being assessed. And, perhaps unfortunately, the application - even after requests for additional information - didn't meet the requirements as I saw them. The reviewer believed that I was being far too anal and focused on the "letter of the law." My disappointment came with his refusal to further discuss and "anal-yze" the specific competencies on which we disagreed prior to his decision to award the certification. I recognized the importance of his being able to make the final decision, but felt cut off and judged.

There's a part of your mind that knows there's not really any such thing as injustice.

And so, I remember the truth: "I have projected this for my healing. This is my dream. This is showing me where I have invested in seeing the world and not in seeing wholeness. Jesus would have no problem with my brother, why am I? This is either an act of love or a call for love, and in either case, I respond with love because love holds no grievances. I see my brother in the happy dream and do not fantasize about his errors. I am at peace."

And so it is!

In Joy,
Michael